'A Typical Day' - In An ADHD Mind... All Those Tabs.

Or: as we call it the art of looking busy while mentally buffering.

[12:08 PM]

Google Docs
Untitled doc
Blinking cursor. No thoughts. Just vibes.
Click. Highlight. Backspace. Nothing.

[12:12 PM]

Slack
7 unread.
One is definitely from a stakeholder.
Another is a reminder from me... to me.
And one is the thread I opened 4 times and still haven’t replied to because it requires “brain.”

I don’t have “brain” right now.
I have “brain fog wearing a trench coat pretending to be executive function.”

[12:15 PM]

Notion
My beautiful system. My temple.
Also my graveyard of good intentions.
The task says:
"Write a document to improve X flow"
The irony is not lost on me.

[12:17 PM]

Open Twitter
I think to type: “Productivity is just panic with a add calendar invite.”
Delete.
Too honest.

[12:21 PM]

LinkedIn
Click on a post titled: “How I Stay Organised as a Neurodivergent PM.”
It involves morning yoga, journaling, and a 5am start.
Cool cool cool. Love that for you... But not for me.

[12:27 PM]

Shortcut
Close one tab.
Open three more.
This is called tab mitosis. It’s science.

[12:32 PM]

Google Calendar
Apparently I scheduled “Lunch”
Cute.

[12:35 PM]

Spotify
Lo-fi beats to dissociate to.

[12:40 PM]

Zoom
Muted. Camera off.
Smiling in Slack.
Sinking in tabs... All the tabs

[12:52 PM]

I write one sentence.
Then delete it.
Then stare at the empty doc like it owes me rent.

[12:59 PM]

I open one last tab.
It’s my own product blog.
The tagline says:

“Shipping features and forgetting where I put my coffee since 2013.”

And suddenly, I remember:
This is part of it.
The blankness.
The spiral.
The nothing.

It’s not failure.
It’s just the brain buffering.
Eventually, it loads.

[1:04 PM]

Hyper Focus Kick in and we are aware - Funny it starts at the same time as lunch! YAY!